Show Me Your Glory

It was my turn to drive so I got to choose what we listen to on the radio. I opened my YouTube and there was a Timothy Keller sermon about dealing with your anger. I knew immediately I needed to listen to it because recently I recognized that I am dealing with anger raging inside me. I struggled with knowing why this was there. It would hit me unexpectedly and I could feel it boiling inside me. I felt like I did not know me. I absolutely hated the moments when I felt it “eep” out of me. I would never allow it to unleash, but dealing with it was frustrating me. I was praying, repenting, and seeking God. I even asked a doctor, “Is this what menopause is like?” But, one day in my quiet time the LORD revealed it to me. I am grieving and one of the first stages of grief is anger. Ever since we moved my mom, Poddy, and Aunt Janie in I have felt the grief of knowing that I moved them here to help them die. It feels morbid even typing that, but I have talked with my mom about it, and she agreed it makes sense. So, I started giving myself permission a while back to feel my grief so it could be released and not pent up in me. 

As the road hummed along and my Greg slept, Timothy Keller said something that caught my attention profoundly. When Moses asked God to show him His glory, God revealed the truth that He was slow to anger. I thought, “Wait! What?” I could not stop thinking about this revelation because the word I am praying this year for me to be known for is glory. I am asking God to show me His glory so I can give His glory away like Jesus did. I had to go and study Moses’s conversation with God. It is found in Exodus 33 and 34.

When Moses asked God to show him His glory, God told Moses that he could not see it fully or he would die, but God would allow His presence to go before Moses and as He did, He would declare His name to Moses. He told Moses to go to a certain place to meet Him at the cleft of a rock and while God passed by showing His glory, God would cover Moses with His hand as He passed by. God would allow Moses then to see His back. I realized that Moses had a responsibility in seeing the glory of God. He had to go and present himself to God and seek Him.

As God passed before Moses the LORD declared, “I am the LORD, the LORD!” This repetition was to remind Moses that God is unchanging. He is the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow. It occurred to me that if we are to understand God, we must know His character. His character reveals His glory. So, what were the character traits that God felt the need to proclaim to Moses in this moment of glory revelation? Not only is God unchanging, but He is merciful—full of compassion. He is gracious—the One who gives us undeserving grace. 

The one that hit me the hardest was He is slow to anger! Yes! God wanted Moses to remember that He is slow to anger! I love that this is listed before God tells Moses that He is abounding in steadfast love—loyal and kind and faithful. As if these are not enough God then points out to Moses that He keeps His steadfast love for thousands by forgiving both iniquities (sin) and transgressions while still holding accountable the guilty or the ones that refuse righteousness—He keeps justice. I love that God made a point to point out the different types of sins that need forgiving. I recognize that He understands that each of us will battle with our own guilt and shame over these. God then pointed out to Moses that one of His names is The Jealous One. God is jealous for us. He is jealous to be in a relationship with us and does not want us to have any idols before Him. 

So, what does God’s glory look like?

 Unchanging, merciful, gracious, slow to anger, abounding in steadfast love, faithful, forgiving, just, and jealous. 

How did Moses respond? Moses immediately bowed and worshipped the LORD! He then asked God for His favor and forgiveness, but what caught me was Moses asked that he and his family be the inheritance of the LORD! He didn’t ask for an inheritance. He asked that he would be an inheritance! What is the point in knowing the glory of the LORD except to give it away? I was reminded of John 17 and how Jesus prayed, “You gave me Your glory and I have given Your glory away that they may know You!” The LORD revealed His character to Moses because it was what would enable Him to know Him. Granted we cannot know God fully now. We see dimly, but He will answer our cries and enable us to know Him. I am astounded that in this we have the privilege of ministering to God. It isn’t just about us taking from God, but about us ministering to Him, too. 

In this season, I needed to see if there are any other verses about being slow to anger and boy was, I surprised! I discovered that there is a Proverb that reminds us that it “makes good sense for one to be slow to anger because it is to his glory to overlook an offense” (Proverbs 19:11). Notice that when I am slow to anger it is to my glory. Why? It reveals that the fruit of the Spirit of the LORD are at work in me. It reveals that I am able to control myself and be merciful full of compassion and gracious giving undeserved grace. This reveals that I have God at work in me and thereby shows off His glory in me. 

Yes! LORD, yes! Show me YOUR glory! And please allow the character traits that You revealed to Moses to be made known in me so that others may know Your glory through me. 

I don’t know which character trait you needed to hear about in order to catch a glimpse of God’s glory, but I imagine that one of them hits you profoundly if you are truly seeking to see His glory. Take a moment to be like Moses and present yourself before the LORD and invite Him to show you His glory but be ready that He will invite you to act on it. For me, it is begging Him to help me not sin in my season of anger as I grieve. 

I know that my mom is here now, and I am enjoying her fully, but it is so hard to let go and know I must say goodbye for a season at some point. My mom is one of my best friends along with my Greg. I want to bless her now be her inheritance for His glory. So, if you feel a little “eep” from me these days would you be so kind to show me His glory in you to help me along my way? 

Shalom y’all.

God Awoke Me with this Image

Since my Africa trip, I have dealt with an onslaught of anxiety. It seemed like it every situation of my life I was questioning myself, whether I was good enough, valued, appreciated, etc. No matter how much I prayed and repented, I would daily have to fight the mental battle again. Please know it was never about my confidence in God or His ability to answer. It was about my inability to get it right. I knew in the moment it was irritational and unfounded which compounded it more because I couldn't make the thoughts stop.

I can't tell you how many times I would tell myself, "This is not a part of your song!"

I finally realized that I was dealing with spiritual warfare and started praying against principalities instead about myself.

I cannot say that I was particularly holy or even in a worthy frame of mind when God gave me the image. It had been a very hard week and a half with my mom in the hospital in the critical care unit. She was finally okay so we were able to go on our trip for Grant's graduation. I was exhausted so Greg kept encouraging me to use the two day drive to sleep, so I did.

As I was waking up, I saw the image of a small clay pot with a wreath around it that was thick and full. I knew it was my drawing even though I had never drawn it. I also knew immediately that the clay pot was me telling God's stories. After Grace closed, God used the Widow's Oil story to reveal to me that I was the widow without her prophet. In my case, the prophet was Grace dying. I heard in my heart that I was to use my jar of oil-- Bible storytelling and not stop pouring until I had no more people to tell them to. So, the jar is my storytelling and that is how I anoint people. I pour out His stories into them. 

I then knew instantly as well that the wreath was my blessing and that it is bearing good fruit. It was a healthy wreath and a full wreath. It looks like a Christmas wreath but with the leaves of a victors crown. 

I woke up with awe and immediately told Greg because I did not want to lose the image or the thoughts carried with it. Joy and peace welled up in me as I realized God spoke to me in a way that I minister to others through stick figures as I tell Bible stories. 

It took a few days before I could draw it. I rarely draw what I see in my mind as I think it should be, but God even blessed me with the ability to draw what I saw. Astounding!

On our drive and as the days followed, I have been drawing and painting it in my mind over and over meditating on its message to me. I do not want to forget the reminder and as I walked into a tough situation a day after God awoke me with the image, God used the image to remind me of the promise He gave me. He very sweetly whispered in my heart, "This is your inheritance." Telling His Bible stories will bear good fruit and my inheritance is the ones that go in tell in turn. This is the kind of inheritance that cannot be taken. It can only keep on growing. 

I love it when God gives me something very clearly spoken that I can cling to as I face life. I am savoring His goodness.

Shalom y'all! 

Healthy Give and Take

A pastor friend in Africa sent this to me. There was no explanation just what you see. I think it must have blessed him so he shared it with me. I do not know if it is because he sees this behavior in me or doesn't. But, I had to respond with the otherside of the give and take. Please read through what was sent and then my response. Give and take requires both. We cannot expect our spouse to be the only one giving and us being the one taking.

From Pastor friend:
Got this somewhere:
MARRIAGE IS GIVE AND TAKE

1. When a woman is humble, she becomes a natural charm to her husband

2. When a woman is submissive, she gets what she desires from her husband

3. When a woman is trustworthy, she can control her husband's finances

4. When a woman is hospitable, she can host her husband's meeting

5. When a woman is friendly, she becomes her husband's best friend

6. When a woman is jovial and playful, she can unlock her husband's sad mood

7. When a woman is appreciative, she receives unexpected gifts from her husband

8. When a woman is respectful, she can attend her husband's cultural meetings with him

9. When a woman is understandable, her husband feels free to tell her even the ugly

10. When a woman is peaceful, her husband comes rushing home each time

11. When a woman is tender hearted, she makes a great mother for her kids

12. When a woman is slow tempered, she knows when to approach her husband in times of misunderstandings and arguments

13. When a woman is not vulnerable, she is loved by her husband

14. When a woman does not keep secrets from her husband, her husband tells her all of his every moves

15. When a woman is prayerful, she becomes a powerful support system selfless, her husband relies completely on her

16. When a woman is creative, she and the husband can figure out the future together

Unfortunately when you are not any of these, it becomes so hard for you to enjoy marriage. Seek God's help to become any of the above, you can't do it on your own. Greetings to all submissive women.

A GOOD WOMAN BUILDS HER OWN HOME

This is my response...

There is a flip side to this... this is all about the woman's side. It should also say...

1. When a man is humble, he is respected.

2. When a man is submissive to God a woman will follow him.


3. When a husband is trustworthy, a woman doesn't feel the need to control his finances.

4. When a husband is hospitable and has the spirit of welcome a wife delights in hosting for husband.

5. When a husband is friendly he will discover loyal love from his wife.

6. When a husband is jovial and friendly he will discover the playful side of his wife.

7. When a husband is generous without expectations, he will find his wife celebrating him publicly.

8. When a husband is respectful, he find his wife cheering him on in public meetings.

9. When a husband takes time to understand his wife, he will discover she will unlock her secrets for him.

10. When a husband is a peace maker, he will discover his wife and family surround him when he returns.

11. When a husband becomes tender hearted, he will raise up children filled with peace and kindness. He will find his wife seeking him more.

12. When a husband is slow tempered, his wife will gladly reason with him.

13. When a husband is vulnerable with his wife, she will care for his heart.

14. When a husband does not keep secrets, his wife will trust him.

15. When a husband is prayerful, God hears his prayers, and this changes a family.

16. When a husband is creative, it unlocks creativity in the family. When a husband allows his wife to be creative, he unlocks out of the box thinkers and kingdom builders.

A GOOD HUSBAND AND WIFE BUILD A HOME THAT BUILDS THE KINGDOM OF GOD.

Husband's and wives are to submit to God, submit to each other, pick up their cross daily, deny self, and follow Jesus.

When we do this, it is not easy, but blessings will be born in us. Our character grows, and when we are willing to choose to be the one that matures, we no longer need to force our spouse to mature. We will pray for it and long for it, but trust God to be the one to do it.

I read what the pastor sent to me to Greg and he agreed it was only focused on the wife. So, I read to him what I wrote and he agreed it is true. We know both sides of the give and take. We both have failed miserably and we both have done it right beautifully.  The good news is that getting it right covers a multitude of mess ups.

Shalom y'all. 

Each Tribe will Camp by It's own Standard

"Each family will camp by its own standard..."  I read this verse and wondered, what does that mean? I immediately thought of how we want to set our own standards and do things our own way. Oh boy, can we be so self centered. So, I began searching to find out the original meaning. 

A standard was a visible sign or banner much like a flag pole that could be raised high so all could see. 

There were three types of banners raised.

1. The great tribal banners.

2. The subdivided portions within a tribe banner.

3. The family house banner. 

It was observable.

It helped with organization.

It was strategic. 

It was positional.

It was a military communication strategy.

It was reverential.

It was spacial.

It was territorial.

It was recognizable.

It was tribal.

It was an identifier. 

It was a communal solidifer and at times divider.

It was a reminder.

No one knows what was actually on these banners. There is debate on whether it was a color, an animal, or symbol. 

If you lived under the banner all knew where you lived positional to the tabernacle where the presence of God resided. If your banner was down all knew you were either defeated by an enemy or you needed help. 

I remembered when the kids were little and on occasions when they would get out of the car, I would say things like, "Don't forget you are a Rye!" Or "don't forget you are a Christian!"

I would say those types of things because I was raising a verbal standard/banner over them as a reminder of who they are, who they belong to, and how we behave because this is our identity.

It seems that there are all kinds of "standards" being raised today. 

The "standards" revealed how close each tribe was to the presence of God in the tabernacle. This was a positional thing. But it was also a spiritual and communal thing as well. It revealed to the community that they were a part of the family of God. It revealed to outsiders that they belonged to the family of God. The standard identified them as a people that chose to worship YHWA. 

As a follower of Jesus, we now carry the presence of God within us. We no longer have the tabernacle as the place that holds the presence of God. Our standard (banners) look different. We no longer raise a flag. We might have Scripture verses hanging in our home or wear a cross, but I would like to propose that standards are our life choices. These become our banners to identify us as being close to God. 

Please hear me out, I am not talking about good works. I am talking about living out Christ like character, the sanctity of marriage, the sanctity of life, the respect for all people, loving your enemy, etc. And then living these out in humility and with a serving spirit. 

I find myself asking, What is the standard you are raising? Can others identify immediately your proximity to the LORD based on your standard? 

Something worth praying about. Don't ya think?  I know I am!

The Gift of Consistency

Play song. A BEAUTIFUL DAY by Jamie Grace

The crazy gift of consistency. 

In order to jump start the mornings of my cuties, I started playing two morning songs (A Beautiful Day by Jamie Grace and The Wake Up Song by Mandisa). 

I would play loud enough to not get growled at and then begin dancing around as feet begin to wiggle and smiles begin to form. All of us could feel the morning worship wake us up and fill our souls. It blessed us!  But I had no idea how much this song would fill me up and help me to focus on a beautiful day. I am finding God is using what I am doing to love well to love deeply in me. Crazy fun God.

So when I was at the hospital with mom, Papa asked Greg, "Are you going to play music and dance for me?" Lol! Greg stuck to giving his morning joke.

Mom and I played the songs each morning, too. She told me, "I really like that song, 'It's a beautiful day'!"  The funny thing is she said it to me as I was telling God how much it meant to me that I wake me up singing it. I was in awe of how He was ministering back to me the way I was choosing to minister.

"It's a beautiful day. I am gonna get my worship on! A beautiful day!"

Oh, I did go home and get Papa out of bed with the songs! 

A beautiful day! 

Listen and receive. Get up and get your worship on! It's a beautiful day!

Human Flourishing

At the State of Omaha, the Barna research team talked about research out of Harvard on human flourishing. I looked it up and read it. These are essentially my quick notes. I love how researchers are discovering truths that are clearly laid out in the Bible. 

Essentially, thr research showed three areas that we can influence human flourishing as a leader.

1. The mind

2. The behavior

3. Our relationships.

They discovered that taking time to daily expressing gratitude, taking time to savor, and imagining your best self develops well being in the mind.

They discovered that the exercise of virtue leads to happiness. So be good to yourself and grow your character. Find ways to be kind to others and serve in your community. By finding ways to do something out of your character strengths daily, you will grow human flourishing in you and others. The cool part is that it inspires others to do the same.

They discovered that when we engage in relationships through marriage, work, and religion, we will flourish. They ended this section on the importance of forgiveness and its role in healing and hope.

For those that know your Bible you will feel very affirmed by what you know. For those that don't know what the Bible says, this article should inspire you to go to the source that cares more about human flourishing.

The key to all of these. The more you do them daily the happier you will be and feel as if you are flourishing. The challenge comes in doing them all more than just once a week. Think 5 times or more a day. 

https://hfh.fas.harvard.edu/how-to-flourish

Who do you send?

Who can tell all about my activities?  Who am I willing to send to go share about them? 

Who can I send to encourage another for me? Or go and give instructions that I trust? 

Who brings comfort to my soul? Who will give comfort to another if I say, "Will you go?"

Who prays in such a way that I would send them to go pray for another?

I love that Paul can list specific men by name for each of these questions.

This morning as I reflected through these questions many of you on this page are some of the faces that came to mind that I could send in my name. It is truly a beautiful trust. 

Thank you for being you.