Prayers dramatic transformation

I have found myself going back and meditating on some oldies, but goodies. I say oldies because these are passages that began a good work in me in my twenties. I have known their work for thirty something years in my life. Like old friends, God will bring them to mind when I need the sword of the spirit to cut through a situation better described as emotion. 

I turned 59 this year. This stage brings on a whole new level of surprise awakened through the physical and emotional changes in womanhood. I keep getting surprised by how intensely my body and emotion can respond to a circumstance. Wozer! I am learning so much more about grace for women in this season. 

The other day Greg and I had a moment only as couples can have a moment. Lol. Well, honestly there was nothing funny about it. He said something. I said something. He said something and then swoosh... there it was. A level of intensity only fit for the front lines. 

As I am losing all reference to sanity or even modeling Christianity, God gave me these two verses. 

I stopped. I inhaled. I exhaled. I prayed. I prayed for him. I prayed for me. I repented for him. I repented for me. I gave God everything right down to calling out of us generational sin that effects communication and all of humanity. My prayer was as intense as the fire in me. 

When I was done my joy returned. My love overflowed. My heart towards Greg was restored. Y'all all of this happened in a span of maybe 3 to 5 minutes. Okay, maybe as much as 8 or 10 based on the distance Greg drove the car.

Why do I share this? It may seem so shameful to some, but here is the deal. I saw God radically change me when I was out of control because I had spent significant time through the years layering the Word of God in my heart. I have seen the power of calling on God in my time of need. I know the joy of His salvation helping me to do hard things. He has helped me before and He will help me again. None of us are perfect. We all fall short of His glory and grace. It is why Jesus came for goodness sake! 

I am not proud of the beginning of those 3 to 5 minutes, but I sure am thankful for the ending of the 8 to 10 minutes. I was transformed by the renewing of my mind. I chose to stop. I chose to pray. I chose to believe there can be a better way. I had faith God can do a good work in me and that He is faithful to complete it.

I am thankful I have a man that loves me despite of me and loves me because I am me. And I do the sane for him.

Maybe, just maybe you might identify with this type of moment. Maybe, just maybe you might need to remember who you are and what you are supposed to do as a child of God just like me. 

Pause. Pray. Give your urgent requests to God in the moment. You might be surprised by joy as He shows you, you can do hard things! 

It is important to be in the Word, to be with Jesus, so we can be trasnformed! 

Shalom, shalom, y'all!